DIRTY ( part II)

My biggest burden as a Christian is my mom. I am not proud to say this but it’s true. I cannot keep up with the Word from the Bible " honor your father and mother" because every single day I find things that I really can’t stand and I just really want to escape or disappear sometimes. When I decided to work homebased, I knew this would be my problem. However, I told myself, I would like to serve my parents and give them the best that I can before I get married (although it’s not too soon).

I’m always awaken by my mom’s voice scolding my dad or my brother, or if not she’s complaining about other things or if it’s a quiet mode, that means she’s still asleep. I hate it!!! It drives me crazy. This is what I go through every single day and it makes me a crank too! I complain inside my mind when my mom is always out because it means I have to do all the errands if I want a clean house but I also have work to do! Ano ba?! Besides, I’m not the mother! I also complain inside when she’s here running errands because I am a hundred percent sure that while she’s here, she’s also holding grudges about doing everything here at home which is not true.

Today, she left early in the morning to do something at the church. She’s back at 1pm, already whining, because she can’t carry the feeds she bought for our small store, and that my sister is bugging her about the confirmation coz she’s needs it, and that she still needs to clean the house ( which I already DID!!! Hindi ba obvious?!) while our " maglalaba" came today washing the white clothes that have've been soaked for 2 days. And what is my mom doing now? - cooking something for some small gathering at the church which means she is going out again.

Somebody help me!!! I really HATE this part of my life. I am not talking but one day I am going to explode. Today, I washed all the dishes, mopped the floor, cleaned the house, cooked food and yet my mom said, I have so many things to do and I am the only doing it. I am so tired. What?! Did mom hear herself? Well, I shouldn't wonder. It's the same line I hear every day.

I do these things almost every day but she doesn’t see it. Why am wondering now?! Sigh.

ARE MOMS REALLY LIKE THIS? I DON’T WANT TO BE LIKE THIS. I want to balance everything, church, family, friends and etc….