Here I go again writing about my mom. I think this blog is intended to write all my chagrin about my mom. What is wrong with her? Or What is wrong with me? A month ago, I told my mom that I’ll buy her an air ticket going to Singapore since it’s not very expensive. Also on my mind, I want her to experience travelling abroad since she’s getting older and she deserves to have some leisure too. Although I resent most of her actions, because they are most of the time proud, insensitive and out of this world) and dislike listening to her stories because I find them irrational and self-centered, I love her and I feel very bad about myself knowing I have this kind of thinking about her. I always feel guilty when it comes to her. I know that I should really just SHUT my mouth but I can’t help it. Her actions are way off. Anyway, to continue my story, my mom is now in her hometown because she has some problems with her NSO birth certificate. She needs to go to the municipal to have it fixed and have her middle name written on it. If you’re going to get a passport through agency, you’ll spend only 1,200 pesos or 750 if you will do it on your own in DFA. My mom had spent 2,000 pesos for the stuff she did today at the municipal, whatever that is. Naturally, anyone will ask, what did you pay for 2k php? And I see nothing wrong in that so I asked and then I suddenly dropped it and said, “oh I don’t really want to know I just ask, anyway...Unfortunately, to my mom it was a big deal. She lost it! She shouted at me over the phone saying, “I will show you all the receipts tomorrow” “you are always doubtful” “things are different now, everything is expensive” “you have a very bad mouth that’s why I don’t like talking to you” “shut up” and she kept on shouting things. And then I said I don’t like to fight and let’s end this call and so she dropped the phone. Sigh. Is my question really that bad? is it my way of asking? is it me? I was really shocked and I am in tears now because I don’t understand her and why these things are happening. I envy those people who have a good relationship with their mothers. I wish that my mom would at least, ONCE, listen to other people and know that she is not always right or maybe I should wish that my mouth will automatically stop saying a word when it’s about her, maybe then these kind of things will not happen again.
I love my mom and I want to honor her and obey her, so help me God.
2 comments:
hahaha! same with my mom. I think you just need to understand her. pagtumatanda na kc sobrang sensitive talaga. pagdumakdak na mommy ko, I'm just pretending wala ako naririnig. after few hours ok na ulit kami. hehe!
that's what i do but i can't always help it. lahat kmi d2 sa bahay naiisstress sa kanya. ok lang nmn magsermon kung nsa lugar diba...hayz
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