Where does God want me to go?

Tomorrow is Sunday again and I don’t know which church I will go to again. I have been attending in a church nearby but I have to admit that I have never really felt blessed eversince I attended there. I do not blame the pastor or anyone in that church for I know that the problem is with me. I know that when we go to church, we are to focus on GOD not people. My mother church is in Antipolo which is 3 hours away from here. When I decided to work home based, I knew that I will have a problem commuting from here to my church. Anyway, I still chose to work here at home although I had an option then of staying near my church. I know that Sunday comes only once a week and it’s just right for me to give that time to God. Of course that’s what I want to do also, but imagine the time, the cost, and the energy I will be spending every Sunday. I know it’s worth it for there I find peace of mind, happiness and true of meaning worship. It’s my sanctuary. I want to go there every single day. I want to attend all services in my church like I used to; Bible study, cell group meetings, visitation, evangelization, dawn and evening prayer. I want to worship God with all my heart and soul. I want to serve God any way I can. I want to sing songs of praise for Him. I want to cry out to Him and surrender all my cares. I want to delight him with my humble heart and burning spirit that wants to love Him and know Him more. BUT…I am here. I am here. I don’t have what it takes to worship Him and serve Him there and it hurts me more than anything right now. How can I not afford to go there every Sunday? I know that God calls me to serve there but I have been so disobedient- because I have to wake up very early, because I have to take the jeepney ride, because I have to spend a lot for the transportation, because I will take the zigzag road for 6 hours back and forth while the worship service is for only 2 hours, because I’ve become complacent with the idea of simply going to church without really having the heart to worship. I wasn’t like this and I don't want to be like this anymore. I know that God is everywhere. I wonder where God wants me to go?